Song of the day:
Hole - Dying

Quote Of The Day:
Freedom is the freedom to say that two plus two make four. If that is granted, all else follows.(George Orwell: '1984')

Song of the day:
Joey Cape - Twenty-Seven

Quote Of The Day:
You click on the 'send' button, just when your eyes see the mistake on the email.


Nintendo 64. The good old days.

Song of the day:
Tony Sly - On The Outside

Quote Of The Day:
For any given software, the moment you manage to master it, a new version of that software appears on the market.

Song Of The Day:
"Starsailor - Way To Fall"

Wow, today is really dark and windy, so - let's talk about death, shall we ?!
I bet it happened to everyone before, you watch a TV show for some time, the characters grow on you, they almost become a part of your life. They can give you comfort and they make you laugh and sometimes angry. And then he/she dies. I can totally understand that it's powerful drama from the writer's perspective, but I'll approach it from the other side - the audience member.
It's a pretty a shitty feeling because it makes me feel like a sociopath.


The more realistic the situation, the more you're sucked in. And it hurts you more than your own grandmother's death. Weird. The 2 saddest things I watched recently.
* The L Word: "Losing The Light" (plus "40 Miles From The Sun" by Bush afterwards).
* Buffy - The Vampire Slayer: "The Body"

Quote Of The Day:
I don't understand how this all happens. How we go through this. I mean, I knew her, and then she's, there's just a body, and I don't understand why she just can't get back in it and not be dead anymore. It's stupid. It's mortal and stupid. And, and Xander's crying and not talking, and, and I was having fruit punch, and I thought, well, Joyce will never have any more fruit punch ever, and she'll never have eggs, or yawn or brush her hair, not ever, and no one will explain to me why. ('Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - The Body')

Song of the day:
Kim Richey - Let The Sun Fall Down

Quote Of The Day:
(Murphy's Law) Any time you put an item in a "safe place", it will never be seen again.

Song of the day:
Kneejerk - *sigh*

I do sigh tonight, cause I have to prepare a small lecture for tomorrow morning (today actually).... *sigh* Wish me luck !

Quote Of The Day:
You are only very busy when your boss is not at the office.

Song of the day:
Frank Turner - You Are My Sunshine

The official song of death since summer 2006.

Quote Of The Day:
The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone. (Harriet Beecher Stowe)

Song of the day:
Yellowcard - How I Go

I think this song relates in some way to the movie "Big Fish". The lyrics and the story are very similar, go check it out !!

I could tell you the wildest of tales
My friend the giant and traveling sales
Tell you all the times that I failed
The years all behind me, The stories excelled
And I'm drying out, Crying out, This isn't how I go

I could tell you of a man not so tall
Who said life's a circus and so we are small
Tell you of a girl that I saw
I froze in the moment and she changed it all

And I'm drying out, Crying out, This isn't how I go
Hurry now, Lay me down And let these waters flow...

Son, I am not everything you thought that I would be
But every story I have told is part of me

And you keep the air in my lungs
Floating along as a melody comes
And my heart beats like timpani drums
Keeping the time while a symphony strums

Son I am not everything you thought that I would be
But every story I have told is part of me
Son I leave you now but you have so much more to do
And every story I have told is part of you

Quote Of The Day:
He who has never hoped can never despair. (George Bernard Shaw)

Song of the day:
THC - Overfire

Quote Of The Day:
Boredom: the desire for desires. (Leo Tolstoy)

Song of the day:
Missy Higgins - Dancing Dirt Into The Snow

Quote Of The Day:
In a world where everything is ridiculous, nothing can be ridiculed. You cannot unmask a mask. (G.K. Chesterton)

Song of the day:
Jacob's Stories - Unfinished Idea No 208

Quote Of The Day:
"Suicide kills two people. That's what it's for." (Arthur Miller)

Song of the day:
Bush - 40 Miles From The Sun


Quote Of The Day:
It is certain that we cannot escape anguish, for we are anguish. (Jean-Paul Sartre)

Song of the day:
Staind - Excess Baggage


Quote Of The Day:
Thank God I'm an Atheist. (Aleister Crowley)

Song of the day:
Sister Hazel - Out There (acoustic)

Quote Of The Day:
I wonder sometimes about why humans seem on a constant quest to find love and companionship... Like we can't survive all on our own. But we certainly could survive all alone...if we had to. Not as a species but certainly as individuals. Nothing is more frightening than solitude. Maybe that's why we long for companionship. It's not the desire to be with someone, but rather, the fear of being without someone...of being alone ! ('Young Americans' fan fiction - www.whosaiditsover.com)

Song of the day:
Death Cab For Cutie - All Is Full Of Love (Björk Cover)

And here's the original song: "Björk - All Is Full Of Love"

Quote Of The Day:
My depression is the most faithful mistress I have known - no wonder, then, that I return the love. (Sören Kierkegaard)

Song of the day:
Puddle Of Mudd - Blurry (acoustic)

Quote Of The Day:
When you live alone you no longer know what it is to tell something: the plausible disappears at the same time as the friends. (Jean-Paul Sartre)

Song of the day:
Fordirelifesake - Circles And Cycles

Quote Of The Day:
Achievement brings its own anticlimax. (Maya Angelou)

Song of the day:
Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter

Quote Of The Day:
Nationalism of one kind or another was the cause of most of the genocide of the twentieth century. Flags are bits of colored cloth that governments use first to shrink-wrap people's brains and then as ceremonial shrouds to bury the dead. (Arundhati Roy)

Song of the day:
The Apprentice - We Were Just 18

Quote Of The Day:
Sexuality is fluid, whether you're gay or you're straight or you're bisexual... you just go with the flow. ('The L Word')

BTW, here's the most delicious picture of the recent US elections !! :D ...serves those intolerant republican assholes right...

Song of the day:
Silverchair - Emotion Sickness

Quote Of The Day:
One feels inclined to say that the intention that man should be 'happy' is not included in the plan of 'Creation'. (Sigmund Freud)

Song of the day:
Johnny Cash - Hurt

Quote Of The Day:
Humans are not made of steel. They have a heart and a soul, they cry and laugh.
They love and hurt. They attack, get injured and scream. Humans are humans. (Yitzhak Rabin)

Song of the day:
As I Lay Dying - Forever

Quote Of The Day:
There is something demoralizing about watching two people get more and more crazy about each other, especially when you are the only extra person in the room. (Sylvia Plath)

Song of the day:
Million Dead - Asthma

Quote Of The Day:
There is an urge and rage in people to destroy, to kill, to murder, and until all mankind, without exception, undergoes a great change, wars will be waged, everything that has been built up, cultivated and grown, will be destroyed and disfigured, after which mankind will have to begin all over again. (Anne Frank)

Song of the day:
Thursday - How Long Is The Night

Quote Of The Day:
I am one of those people who needs to learn to let people hug me. I also need to need other people because I do. (Angelina Jolie)

Song of the day:
System Of A Down - Aerials

Quote Of The Day:
It is what it is, yo. ('Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Chosen')

Song of the day:
Smile Empty Soul - Silhouette

Quote Of The Day:
Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands ? (Ernest Gaines)

Lizzy the Lezzy:

Song of the day:
Gregor Samsa - Young & Old

Quote Of The Day:
I can't think of words. I feel no emotion about anything. I don't want to laugh or cry. I'm numb-dead inside. (Nick Drake)

My past attempts at fanart: (I hope I'll be better at some point..---from old to new)

Song of the day:
Dress Rag Rehearsal - 19:21

Quote Of The Day:
Everybody feels alone. Everybody is, until you die. ('Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Conversations With Dead People')

Virtual Depression Part 1

Song Of The Day:
Michael Andrews - Mad World

Katharsis - a big impressive word !!
Today I'll try to analyze my need for virtual emotions. You know, you watch a movie, read a book or listen to some song that makes you happy, sad or something in between. And afterwards you feel a lot better... well, more or less (this is my depressive streak again I guess).
Some people call it escapism, the attempt to live in your head rather than in the real world, others think of it as catharsis. I think for me it's a mix of both. I still don't like to leave my house and deal with outside problems but I also think that living certain situations, even if they're just simulated, can get strain and angst out of your system.
Isn't it weird that a fictional character can touch us more than humans that are part of our actual life ? What is it exactly that's stirred up by this ? Why do I identify and project that much - Because I'm afraid otherwise I'll become numb ??
Probably it's just the need to connect with another person (it doesn't matter if it's through a screen) and I don't allow it myself it in the real word because of my trust and abandonment issues. But in the end I don't think the reason is that important, cause after all, it doesn't really matter what you cry about the moment your tears are flowing, right ?!

So, if you feel like there's a weight on your shoulders but you can't really figure out what it is or how to deal with your Weltschmerz - here's what I do:

a) Law & Order SVU episode: "Fallacy"

some clips

b) plus "Another Word For Desperate" by Straylight Run
If the powerful performance by Kate Moennig and this song can't move you, your heart is probably even colder than mine !! It's torturous but I actually feel a little better after watching it - as soon as the empathic pain has passed.

Quote Of The Day:
Passion. It lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting... And though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir, open its jaws, and howl. It speaks to us, guides us. Passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have ?
It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank. Without passion, we'd be truly dead. ('Buffy:The Vampire Slayer - Passion')

Song of the day:
Coheed And Cambria - In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth 3

Quote Of The Day:
Wer eine unglückliche Liebe in Alkohol ertränken möchte handelt töricht. Denn Alkohol konserviert. (Max Dauthendey)


Sorry who are you...?

Song Of The Day:
David Gray - Alibi


Quote Of The Day:
How to express what I feel ? — For still one is always, even surrounded by all of one's friends, alone. (Heinrich von Kleist)

Song of the day:
Xavier Naidoo - Sie sieht mich nicht (live)

Germany's greatest voice !

Quote Of The Day:
I have no faith in human perfectability. I think that human exertion will have no appreciable effect upon humanity. Man is now only more active - not more happy - nor more wise, than he was 6000 years ago. (Edgar Allan Poe)

Song of the day:
New Found Glory - Boulders

Halloween's passed and November is here, the darkest month of the year. Everything's gone grey and all the plants die. That's why I'll make my theme for the next 30 days Angst & Death. At least the latter is inevitable. And since I'm a little emo after all I can't force it out of my mind when it's all cold and rainy outside.

Quote Of The Day:
Every blade in the field, Every leaf in the forest,
Lays down its life in its season, As beautifully as it was taken up. (Henry David Thoreau)