Breathing Is Only Half The Function

Song of the day:
"Staind - Me"

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Oh , my life couldn't suck more right now. I don't know what I've done wrong to get so much bad karma all at once. Or maybe I'm just not used to it. I can't even remember when it all started, I tend to suppress it when shit happens. But the main problem would be that I'm absolutely broke. Jobless and for whatever reason without student fundings. I don't know if I can pay the rent this month and eating rice all the time doesn't help my mood either. Next thing: my phone stopped working, so now I have to use my cellphone all the time. I'm looking forward to that bill.
Then - I drove home from the gym yesterday night - I was taken into "temporal custody to confirm my identity" or whatever it's called cause I drove past the police on my bike without lights and I didn't have my ID with me. So then, after they took me to my apartment and back to the street again I had to walk back home. And I passed several posters that said 'I enjoy walking'. That's when I started to suspect a huge fucking cosmic ironic conspiracy.
Then this morning I had to take some papers to printing for a friend of mine cause she got sick. As soon as I walked out the door it started pouring. And I couldn't take the bus cause I don't have a semester ticket because - I don't have money.
So when I reached the university building my 2 jackets were drenched and my shoes were swimming. After I hurried through all this bureaucracy bullshit I went to an ATM to check if maybe I got my loan for october after all. Of course I did not. And as I rode my bike back through the rain I tried to pass the rails of the tram. Emphasis on 'tried' cause I slipped and slammed on the ground. All I could think of was how unbelievable this all was. For a brief moment this weird helpless sensation overcame me and I just wanted to give up. But after lying there for a few seconds I got up and continued my way home. Listening to Staind (probably not the best choice when you have a shit day) and crying silenty for a couple of minutes.
And last but not least, when I left the house again later that day I noticed that the bike has a flat tire now. Fucking perfect. I hope I can fix it myself cause I sure as hell can't have it fixed in a shop.
So I wonder what tomorrow has in store for me. I can't think of a lot of ways for it to get any worse. Well it's a national holiday so it's gonna be rather quiet. At least I feel better now after writing it down.